❀*a drop of colour*❀

a non-mantra

Letting go is tearing me apart. It hurts, it hurts, make everything stop.

Wake up in the morning

feeling trapped, anxious, and scared.


Sick as a dog

Oft expectation fails, and most oft there
Where most it promises. —William Shakespeare
All’s Well That Ends Well, act II, i, 145

It is important to me that the sun shines this brightly into my room.


the pressure on first generation children of immigrants 

to prove that you are indeed proof that parents’ sacrifice was worth it

is something that many Americans will never understand

Today’s Spring Equinox! I spent half of it at the doctor’s office, trying not to faint while filling out forms. But it also involved Shanghai cuisine, productivity, and silly/dirty talk with a friend, so all-in-all, t’was a decent way to usher in spring.

Being home after a fun and (mostly) carefree weekend is a bit disorienting to say the least.


The sun is shining and it’s hella warm. Do rad things. Forget about boys.

New and old scents